<3in Life

Everything is just hurting

2012-02-12T12:50:00.001-07:00

this sucks

SINCE I FOUND IT, I AM GOING TO ANSWER IT

2011-02-13T00:44:00.002-07:00

How am I? You know what, by the way you guys, and people seem to treat me. Yeah, you guys are so... great. But me, HEY, lets just leave her in the freaking dust.
Better, NO. No NO NO NO NO and you want to hear the best part, it's all your fault.
No, you have not. And I bet you won't either.
I doubt it

I have you guys an update

2011-02-07T11:55:00.002-07:00

Hey you guys, I am terribly sorry I haven't been blogging on here. I do have another blog like thing though if you would love to check it out. It is a Tumblr. That seems to be the new fad now a days and I will say, I do quite enjoy it. But, if you would still like to keep up with my writing, you can go to justaraeofsunshine.tumblr.com Now, down to business, I felt like doing a new post cause... just saying, I do not like the last post that has been lurking on this blog. I mean hey, that was a good time in my life but, I am ready for it to go. And hate to sound like somewhat of a ... you could say 'harlot' but I have moved on. I have in fact... well somewhat have been hanging around with someone else. It is quite delightful and refreshing. I am currently a Sophmore, a bit more on that now. Its going good. Your Sophmore year is a bit of a hiatus in your... well... high school life. Its something that you just push for and something the precedes the oh so much better times to come. I mean don't get me wrong, this is high school and it is a special time for a typical teenager like my self, but the Sophmore year is a bit dull. But hey, isn't that school, well in general? So now for something interesting. I am watching this show on Discovery Channel. Its this show where thy basically perform Exorcisms... I am still now quite sure how I feel about it. I mean, I of course think weird stuff like this is rather interesting but it is still very, um... whats the word.. Sketch. Over and out you guys! Now remember, if you want to keep up with me , go to justaraeofsunshine.tumblr.com XOXO

2010-09-05T19:11:00.002-07:00

I am happy. Life is pretty. And you are my pleasant sideline watcher. Thank you. XOXO

10 things I want you to know

2010-08-29T01:23:00.003-07:00

I am not going anywhere
Hearing how upset you sounded made my heart crack and break into a million pieces
You can talk to me about anything
I am not even completely done showing you my entire self
I really do care
I am willing to try if you are
I can make this all work with a snap
Referencing to #7, I probably can't, but I will try, and I will hold my head up through the entire time and think to myself, "everything will be okay"
My mind is reeling right now
You are something important to me. You are now and permanently be a little indent in the events of my life.

XOXO

These are the days

2010-08-27T17:22:00.004-07:00

Yesterday was inspiring. Funny how something so inatimate can make me swell and change my day. Thanks. you know who you are. :) Today is lovely. I am having fun. I am being happy. Its the good life and I think I'm going to keep living it. Tonight is magical. Every little thing just felt magical. And I loved soaking it in like a giant sponge. I love how you all accept me. Thanks :) XOXO

I am a hipster.

2010-08-25T12:34:00.002-07:00

So I am sitting, here in Language arts as a... (DRUM ROLL) SOPHMORE!!!! Oh yeah babyyy. So we are researching greek people... haha um yeah. Exciting isn't it? I am researching Demeter, who is the mother of Persephone. Demeter is the Goddess who brings forth fruit, grains, all that lovely stuff. The main story one hears about Demeter is how her daughter was kidnapped by Hades and was taken into captivity. Charming right? So basically, whenever her daughter is taken, it becomes really cold, and sad because... that's how she is feeling (Winter). You get me there? But, when her daughter, Persephone is returned, it is all warm and happy, thus making all the plants grow, prosper, etc. Hmmm... So, according to the weather happening in Arizona, Persephone and Demeter must be having a little party. Thanks Greek mythology for finally helping me understand why it is so hot in Arizona. On a lighter note, I am currently sitting next to Alina, and Victoria. :) Its a fun class period. Love you all. Sorry I haven't been on my blogger. if you would like to continue reading of the daily adventures of Tessa (i.e. ME) you can go to: justaraeofsunshine.tumblr.com There you go kiddos. I will continue to update this blog but it will most likely not be as frequent as my tumblr. I hope you guys have a fantastic day :) XOXO P.S. I really love all of you guys oh so much. Thanks for putting up with me and well... everything I seem to do.

So um yesterday :)

2010-07-06T17:13:00.002-07:00

Yeah... yesterday may have fallen into the category of one of Tessa's favorite moments. I will spare you the details but um yeah, last night, thanks for something memorable :) XOXO

So recently

2010-07-05T11:52:00.002-07:00

So the majority of my time has been about figuring things all out? correct my inquisitive friend. But um... i think I may almost have it all figured. i mean.. i havn't been excited about something like this for awhile now. Must be progress :) XOXO P.S. haha I still come back here too! blogger will always be pretty spiffy :)

Oh the Old

2010-06-18T13:33:00.002-07:00

Oh Old Blogger post you make me laugh so much :) I love the silly little things I would say. They make me laugh. And all the list of things I liked. To think, it was old like 3 months ago :) I wasn't able to curl my hair then. I sure can now. SUCCESS BABY. "Lets run away together. Right now, like they do in the movies. Just go" I remember writing that. I was kinda cute I think? It makes me giggle. XOXO

2010-06-15T21:41:00.002-07:00

So i threw up... 6 times yesterday... It was oh too much fun, not. And now, my tummy continues to make strange noises at me. Please stop

Hello there

2010-06-09T08:20:00.002-07:00

So I am currently sitting here, in summer school, in the library with Kelly :) She is currently reading what I type. Say Hi kelly :) She said Hi. So how bout I describe EVERYTHING that is going on currently. How bout I do Kelly!!! So, Mrs. Chapman is about 2 feet away from me. If she catches us... ehh we might be screwed? Oh apparently the Librarians can see what we are doing. Hi Librarians!!! :) I don't care, they are rather nice. Kelly has claimed to be interesting. Okay so Kelly is going to tell me a story... SIGNING OFF XOXO

2010-06-08T15:49:00.002-07:00

Its weird to think I said that 5 days ago. I still regret saying that. I told Kay to never let me say something like that about myself ever again. I am glad I told Savannah. Those pretty blue eyes are looking out for me. Thanks XOXO

Story of my life...

2010-06-06T00:35:00.001-07:00

Oh you know its funny. Did I just make your life?

2010-06-05T20:23:00.001-07:00

I have friends that are good enough to do this for me: http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=1362317744#!/group.php?gid=129352550424465 I have 15 members, and every single one of them mean so much to me. I needed that so bad.... and I didn't even have to ask for it. Thank you. XOXO

2010-06-04T20:20:00.000-07:00

It hurt to say. I am so sorry.

2010-06-03T23:53:00.002-07:00

It's weird. It's strange. It's a letter in a post secret book. It's me telling my secrets to a stranger. It's me being confused by the camera flashes. It's me losing it. Its some weird form of magic. It's me on the edge. It's me trying to be pretty. It's me pretending to be a model. It's me trying to be funny. It's me trying to be cute.

It's me trying

2010-06-02T22:58:00.001-07:00

Why couldn't it have been you on that bicycle chasing after me?

The things you find in the comment section

2010-06-01T23:43:00.003-07:00

I use to do all that for my girlfriend.... not anymore. Yet every night I still dream about her. I can hear her laugh when I'm alone. I can feel her fingers between mine when theres nothing but empty space... I still love you Hollie I wonder if she ever read it I found this under "How we used to" by: Rocket to the Moon I just found this special. It was so sweet. It made me want to cry but I didn't want to just do it out of the blue. I mean, everything he is feeling. Everything he desires. Everthing he wants her to know is right here. All she had to do was look and read it.

Summer BABY

2010-05-26T13:51:00.002-07:00

Whoa hey there summer. Its so nice to see you. I really really missed you. Oh you want to do something? okay, I will see if I can fit that in :) So hello my darling blog readers!! How are you? Oh me? oh I am dong fantastic thanks for asking. Ah but yes. Schools out. Summers in!!! So happy. Sleeping in. Swimming. Tan skin. Hot guys. ah yeah. Plus thats whole staying up late thing, I love it. I am the night owl. Well thats all I had to say. Summer baby here I come!! *Splash* XOXO

2010-05-23T23:12:00.004-07:00

I just threw my journal across the room because the contents of it pissed me off. That page I wrote today had to be the best entry in it and it took me 30 seconds. All of those girls said I was cute and pretty. For once I'll agree.

I am pretty when I do what I want
I am pretty when I don't care
I am pretty when I TRY
I am pretty when I am something
I am pretty when I control myself
I am pretty when I am honest
I am pretty when I smile

Right now, I am freaking pretty.

XOXO

Meet the freaking love of my life

2010-05-23T22:36:00.000-07:00

Be afraid

Its Lestrange

2010-05-23T22:15:00.002-07:00

I guess I've been replaced. Well thats great. I've got the steady friends Alina, and Savannah, Christine, etc. But... uh great. Its just a bit strange. So, who wants a bestfriend cause she is open.

I would rather be

2010-05-23T17:09:00.002-07:00

I would rather be:

While:

With these kids:

2010-05-23T08:57:00.003-07:00

I love the cliche love songs that are so meaningless and pointless. They make me smile :) So lets see... hows the life going? Its going swell. Thanks for asking. So lets see, oh yes, 3 more days till summer!!! And then I am off to camp eeep yay! :) I am pretty psyched. Ah so on Friday, I put a little sign on Savannah's locker that said "I love you Savannah Banana!!!" I wonder if she liked it... hm? Umm so I stayed the night at Kay's house, that was purty fun. We took a bunch of funny pictures, worked on our new vlog, The Kay and Tessa Rae show (coming soon) and we just chilled and talked. Good life :) Then Saturday we watched Dan in Real Life. I love that movie :) Then Kay came over to my house so I could show her my new shoes (pictures soon to be posted) Well I believe thats it. Love everysingle one of you that takes the time to read this :) XOXO

I would Rather be

2010-05-21T15:02:00.003-07:00

I would rather be watching:

While eating:

with:

Taking this from Kay Cause I want to :)

2010-05-21T14:49:00.009-07:00

I would rather be:

Eating:

With:

And these lovely ladies:

In case you are reading this

2010-05-19T21:37:00.004-07:00

Dear You, I want you to know that I want you to smile. I want you to not worry about the stupid little things and I really want you to realize that I am always here for you. I want you to realize that I want to be that best friend that you can talk to whenever you need me. And I want you to know that you can trust me. I want you to know that I will always be there to put a smile on your face whenever you need it. I want you to know that I love you. XOXO, Tessa

2010-05-18T23:22:00.003-07:00

Is it all worth it? I mean, I try, I try, I try but... do you try? I have debated so many times wether to just give up or keep trying. Is it even at all worth it? *Dig* *Dig* *Dig* *Dig* Oh hey look, this hole I am in got a bit deeper.

2010-05-17T22:37:00.003-07:00

Savannah can ask what her faults are. I can't. I am scared of the answer. I have had 8th grade blown up in my face too many times. The days of just crying and crying. The days of just questioning myself over and over. The days when I was scared to look in a mirror cause I thought it might crack. Those days when people were against me for no reasons. It makes me so angry. The days when Savannah was the only person I trusted. The days when I wrote so many music notes that I needed to buy more notebooks. The days when I sat with my head down finishing my homework 30 minutes before everyone else. The days when I cried. I am scared to hear the answer. I am scared to ask the question.

Ke$ha

2010-05-16T21:03:00.002-07:00

Ke$ha... I know its so cliche but hey i like it. But anywho... its brings back such good times. Just like the little random moments. Like Kay, coming over and spending 3 hours at my house just talking with me and doing absolutely nothing. Then just attacking eachother with shoes and Angus (the cow). Yeah I love life. I love my friends. You are all so special to me. Thank you for everything you do. XOXO

Kay

2010-05-12T17:33:00.002-07:00

Things change. Its all planned. I know. I know. I know. ITS SUCKS. I dealt with it too. Trust me, it really just plain sucks. But, its all planned. And we follow it. We walk through it, we run through it sometimes. We smile through it, and then we break down on the bedroom floors and cry through it. But the reasons for our tears are not the exceptions. They are just the distracting bumps on the road. We trip over the bumps. We might get some scratches and bruises, then we stand up, brush ourselves off and keep on going. Cause there is a pretty little new fresh cookie waiting at the end :) Just for you. Trust me. Things will get better. Your just at the low, just wait, swipe the slate and mind clean and just stand up again. It will all get better. Afterall, Summer is almost here :) I love you so much girl. Forever and Always XOXO Lobster :)

Green

2010-05-11T22:30:00.004-07:00

These are the photos I don't put on facebook. The ones with a bit of depth and more meaning behind them. Well here you go. Here is the picture. To the few privlidged fans I may just have.

In case any of you were wondering

2010-05-11T21:13:00.004-07:00

Here is what Tessa is doing this summer!!! Well at least wants to do :)

Plans for my fantastic summer

Get bangs with Kay (eek nervous about that one)
Do an all nighter
Go to Phoenix and take photo
Go to San Diego with Kay (psyched!)
Have an amazing 4L year at camp
Have a sleepover with Alina and Banana
Write letters to Kayla and Kylie
Read the Hunger Games
Do a makeup blog with Kay
Watch the sun rise or set
Learn to Slolum skii. (sp?)
Go Motorcycle riding
P.E. Reunion ♥
Get a for real tan
Go on an escape trip with Kay
Cross something off the bucket list
Go up to Utah with Maddy and Kay
Harry Potter Marathon
Go to New Mexico with Kay
Get together with some old elemetary school friendsAdd ons:
Go to the lake
Sleep on the trampoline
Sing and dance in the rain during monsoon season

Hello darlin

2010-05-11T18:09:00.002-07:00

Sooo today. Eh today was fine. But you know what I did. I decided not to care and it was fantastical. As I saw you walking away... i just talked to someone else and had a delightful conversation. You aren't the only one. And to her, you aren't the only guy either. Have a great life. But uh yeah :) cheer was great. No drops um... good job kiddos. I love you all so much. Oh and Kay came to practice!!! ahhh she just walked in and I was just so excited and happy :) She really needs to go to my school. Yeah really. But yes, soooo great to see her. You really brightened up my day. And i got the big hug I was wanting, even though I smelled like a sweaty cheerleader. So yeah thats it. Love you all very much :) XOXO P.S. to Kay, I am also so thankful for last summer. Thanks for inviting me over to your house for that 'end of P.E. summer thing' Thats what got us going. And we both took that step. I am so thankful for you. I love you so much and I will always be here for you. Anyday anytime. Love you

2010-05-10T22:02:00.002-07:00

Make your own wishes. Or just make your own stars.

Now a Days

2010-05-10T21:19:00.003-07:00

Now a days, I don't know, I guess all I can do is compare it to a little can of soda sitting in the fridge. It just sits there, all fresh, but then it start to just go dull and lose its good taste and flavor. And the only bubbles you can get from it is if you shake it and put some effort into it. So... Tessa is the can of soda sitting in the back of the fridge... Great. Aren't I just fabulous at analogies?

We promised

2010-05-09T23:12:00.005-07:00

Tessa: you are the only exception <3

Kay: Ahh no, I love it! Tessa: yep :) i promise lets make a vow right now we will only say that once to one person Kay: "You are the only exception"? Tessa: yep cause they are the only one they are the only exception. cause the others... the others will have somehow hurt us and we will leave Kay: OK! True dat. Promise!!! Tessa: I promise you, Kay Shaeffer, I will never say 'you are the only exception', except to the person I marry cause that will be the only time i mean it. Kay: I promise you, Tessa Patterson, I will never say 'you are the only exception' except to my true love. <3 Tessa: :) Pinky promise? Kay: PINKY PROMISE! I did it to the air just now :) Tessa: same here we are serious about those Kay: Heck yes we are. We are for real. XOXO

ATTENTION

2010-05-09T22:17:00.002-07:00

ATTENTION!!! NEED NEW COOKIES Must be:

Hot
Soft
Steamy
And lots of extra chocolate chips
Warm
Fresh

XOXO

I like pictures??

2010-05-09T21:11:00.004-07:00

Somebody loved . Such a sweet song ahhh such a great night I kinda like this one a lot :) I love her. She is one of the greatest friends. Love you forever

Inspired by the song Everlasting Friend by Blue October. Truely inspirational.

XOXO

To everyone

2010-05-09T15:04:00.003-07:00

I don't know what to say. I am so sorry. I am so sorry that had to happen. I am sorry for the loss and the devistation. Its happened to all of us. I am just, I feel so stupid cause all I can say is I'm sorry but it doesn't do any good or help the situation. You will be missed. You are loved. I don't know you but my heart swells. Thank you. I love you. XOXO

Got to write this one down.

2010-05-08T00:10:00.003-07:00

So its been a great night. No really, like one of the best nights ever. So lets start it off. Maddy P. came over to see something with her prom dress. We hung out for a bit. Then did some good shopping :))) Then me and Kay headed off to babysitting. Those kids are too cute. They gave me and Kay nicknames. So I a Tessa Ham, and she is Kay bologna. Pretty amazing right. So then I did some work on Kay's prom makeup. It took me sometime but we got it right :) she looked uber gorgeous. Then we went to the church parking lot and had an epic dance party in the street. Yeah we are kinda cool. Then we went, got some cash, then we went to Fry's at 10:30. So there were these really cute guys right? So I say to one of them, as he is walking away, "hey, your pretty cute." So the checkout lady yells at me "Go do something about it!!!" Life saying right there :) Then we went to Jack in the Box. We spoke in Australian accents and asked for just spoons. Purely spoons. He was confused :) But then as we drove away (with our spoons) Me and Kay yell out 'Oh snap I dropped my trousers!!!' That's all you need to say in any awkward situation. Lets see... oh yeah then we went to my school and sat by the bleachers and ate our ice cream. It was fantastic. Then we just parked and yelled things into the sky. Then... yes, parked across the street from my house and we just talked. It was great. I guess we decided that... there are things that just don't matter. And love isn't all you need. You need more. I said that was maybe the 4th necessity on the 'need' list. We said you need family, friends, knowledge and then, well i guess then we through love right there. I mean, we figured you should love someone, such as friends or family. But you don't need someone there. You can just be the roaming nomad. Its a good profession. It was kinda nice to just get it all out :) Well that's all. I will put up some pictures. I love you all truly and forever. XOXO

So today

2010-05-05T21:06:00.002-07:00

Eh, yeah today kinda was horrible... mutual was fun though. So was cheer. And Savannah. It has its ups and down. How bout we start this off bad and then... we will finish good. I wake up, neck hurts, eh not bad. Super tired though plus, I prefer dreams to bitter reality. Yeah, freaking bitter. Went to seminary eh, it was okay. I don't know nothing special. Harden heart I guess? I did kind of put some stone barriers on it. Do I knock them down? Asking Kay Shaeffer, do I knock down the stone barriers or keep them up? I mean, BoM softens but... in general I do wear an armour of stone typically. Please answer. Went to Language... eh okay. Gave a presentation. Freaking fantastic. Uh yeah. Math, dear math I am sick of you. it was fine i was just annoyed from English. Oh theatre. Theatre was actually fun. We visited Emily and Kelly... i am such a little 10 minute ditcher :) I kinda was just pissed off but it was funny. I talked to my Savannah Banana which made everything better. I love you darling. Then lets see, oh the rest of my day. Hm... Sluts. Okay, thats all. Self explanatory. The piss me off. Thats all. Okay, then visited kelly, I kinda yelled at her in Alina. Thanks for listening my darling girls :) I love you. Them um... science. I made Alex make me laugh. He did a sufficient job. Thanks buddy. Mr. Pond yelled at us... i laughed and then i think i mummbled I am sorry mixed with CALM DOWN. oh um then cheer. That was fun :) Me, Nichole and Alexann the reps of the Jv team. I think we might attempt single basing tomarrow. I am freaking excited!! oh so, Tessa proved her ninja abilities today. So this group is stunting, she begins to fall, Tessa sprints, catches the girl... i was on the otherside of the room. I am a beast. She would've hit the floor without me. Yeah, made my LIFE. Oh and mutual, we visited the elderly. They are cute. this one lady... just cute :) She said she plays bingo, I told her to tell me when she plays cause I am feirce at bingo. She was excited :) So thats about it. See... Bad to GOOD. Great thats all XOXO P.S. Highlight of the moment. I am over it. Over it.

That helps

2010-05-01T21:35:00.001-07:00

"Take the message that I'm picking up my chin at last." "I might crumble. I might take the fall again (Still missing you)" I pick up my chin, I fall, but then I pick it right up again. Higher than it ever was. And I like it that way. The view of the skies or the setting sun is so much more appealing than my unpainted toes or the treaded on cement. Yep I picked myself up cause I realized, that the people in the above picture ^^^^ the one on the title page will always be there for me. Alina will always be there to fight for me. Savannah will always be there to pick me up and listen. Kay will always be there to listen and understand. Jack will always be there whenever I decide to randomly vent to him. Mackenzie will be there when I just randomly decide to do something about a situation. Sarah B. will always be there to just care and worry about me. Saskia will always be there when I need here healing music to pick me up. Sarah will always be there when I randomly decide to call her and update her on my complete life. Cj will always be there to just help me see things a bit clearer. Luke will be there to help me laugh and make things better. Maddy will always be there to listen to me and let me yell. All of you will be there for me. Even when it was just those little things that you did for me. I took notice of it. It helped so much. And I love you for it. And I, I will always be there for me and you. XOXO

You have no idea

2010-04-30T19:30:00.000-07:00

You have no idea how important this picture is to me. You really don't. You guys are always there for me. All of you. You always stick with me. I know if I ever fall you will catch me. Its always guaranteed. No strings attatched. Just like Savannah said today. "If you break, we will be here to bring you back up." Even if I called you at 4 in the morning crying, i know you would listen and pretend you weren't tired. I love you so much. You have no idea. You have no idea how important you are to me. You have no idea that I would do anything for you. You are all that matters. Nothing else. I have nothing to worry about because I know you will always be there. Thank you. So much. Thank you to any of you that have ever been there for me, ever. Even for the most miniscual thing. I love you so much you can't even comprehend

XOXO

P.S. this goes out to all of my friends. Really, I love you more than you will understand. Soak it in.

Yeah I said this.

2010-04-29T20:43:00.000-07:00

tell yourself your cold and heartless it will make you feel strong. Say your heart is made of stone that can't be broken it will make you feel invincible. Yeah I said that, and I meant it. Feels great. Love the some and the few. XOXO

Dear Friends,

2010-04-29T20:37:00.000-07:00

You make me feel oh so much better. These are the times when I am reminded how we became friends. Cause I was there for you, and you were there for me. You are all I need to help me. Nothing else and NO ONE else. Thank you for everything. Really to all the friends that have ever been there for me for even the most stupid reasons. I love you more than you can comprehend. really I do. Thank you so much. Love, Tessa

Click

2010-04-28T17:36:00.000-07:00

"Heads Carolina. Tales California." I really want to get away. Shake me and wake me up. I feel like I am living in a haze. Just grab me by my shoulders and shake me and throw me until I just break into an uncontrollable fit cause that is better than being a faker. I am so sick of the radio now a days, yet I still listen to it. When I see flashbacks it makes me angry. Shouldn't it make me happy? Its making me more and more and angry but yet I still look because I think that somehow I will get back to that point. *click* *click* *sting* *sting* *Step back* Over and out.

2010-04-27T19:20:00.000-07:00

Thanks Jack. Your a good friend. :)

Do you not realize?

2010-04-27T16:57:00.000-07:00

I'd go back to how things were if you did? I would go back to before this amazing disaster happened. I would go back to the time that you were one of my best friends and my brother. Now, your just the ghost that I see through photos. Come back please. Cause I am sick of waiting.

A day in 4th period theatre

2010-04-27T11:20:00.000-07:00

Alicia lost a bead. I will describe everything that is going on around me. Grace is reading while I type. Bri is braiding her hair. Tyler is talking to Luke. I hear a cat, it sounds like it is giving birth to a chicken. Alicia is wearing rose earrings, i think they are pretty. She said thanks and I said your welcome. Grace is changing the facebook language to pirate. Bri is staring at a blank google screen. Lauren is getting papers out of the printer. Cassie is talking to Daniel. Oh Daniel is hugging Cassie. Things move fast in theatre. It got quite when Grace started singing. Grace looked up Jack Sparrow. She started giggling profusely. Alicia dropped a bead. I have been told not to move but yet... I continue moving. I am sorry. Mario and Dillon are playing a game on the computer. nifty. Bri is looking at four googles... at once. She sure likes google. Bri is reading MLIA to me. I love her. Grace just celebrated an unknown victory. She is currently reading this post as I am typing. oh her unknown victory was she typed in bork bork bork and then typed in Carl Sagan (whoever that is.) Oh... grace told me he is a famous scientist. Alicia made 2 bracelets. That girl works fast. I really want a frozen meal now. That sounds freaking delicious. Daniel has a red Powerade. I want a red Powerade. Grace is looking at the Carl Sagan portal. I know, I am confused too. Its cold. I just got the chills. Eeek. Does that mean a ghost just passed through me? Alicia's string that she uses to make bracelets is called stretch magic. Grace is now taking the keyboard and will begin typing in 3...2...1...I LOVE YOU AAAAAALLLLLLL!!!! AND I LOVE YOU TESSA!!! XOXO

So I am in the computer lab!

2010-04-27T11:09:00.000-07:00

I am sitting here in the computer lab with bri :))) we have been picking out scripts for theatre and we have nothing else to do. Are script is Juno :) I love that movie. hehehe Babies have fingernails! Fingernails!! haha yessss. But it has been a great day. just sitting here with Brianna. Love that silly girl. She is the cheese to my macaroni. Oh yeah, and in are Juno script thing, i am playing Leah and she is playing Juno. So um, i guess i am the Leah to her Juno? If that makes any sense... haha schyeahh. So um yeah, Bri says hi :) well people are starting to question what I am doing. I feel like such a rebel being on the computer when I should be supposedly working. Even when I have nothing to do. Haha well over and out boys and girls :)

XOXO

To you

2010-04-24T12:41:00.000-07:00

Its not customary. When I say it I mean it. I say I love you to people. I say your beautiful to people. I know I say it to many people so some may think it loses its emphasis. I mean it every time. When I say it to you, or when she says it to you... when WE, the together eternal WE, say it to you, its not customary. We mean it. I love you. Always have always will. Our bond is different. No matter what trials come, I promise you it will never break. Cause I am your shoulder and you are mine. I will always be there and so will you. I promise. Its not customary, its the truth, from the people that will always be there. From the people that will love you no matter what. From the person that will make you wear a blue dress with cowgirl boots. I promise. Its the truth. XOXO

When I look back

2010-04-23T22:07:00.001-07:00

When I look back on all the posts I've done... its almost like I am reading a book. I mean, like a biography. It says all I was dealing with but when I wrote it I somehow made it so it was difficult to decode. Its so intriguing. Can I put something out there, I am still the same Tessa. I have my moments but I am still the deep and understanding person I was and am. I don't know, I just, I sometimes worry about people splitting apart and I don't want that to be a reason. I love all my friends so much and I don't want something that isnt' even real to ruin it. I finnaly started writing again. It felt great. I like how this one turned out. Plus its always fun to describe what I write to people and the meaning it has to me. Its things they don't realize. Its interesting :) So I am heading off. Love you all. Truely forever and always. XOXO Decode me. Decode the black dots on my measures.

I am...

2010-04-20T20:17:00.000-07:00

Openness to Experience/Intellect High scorers tend to be original, creative, curious, complex; Low scorers tend to be conventional, down to earth, narrow interests, uncreative. You enjoy having novel experiences and seeing things in new ways. Conscientiousness High scorers tend to be reliable, well-organized, self-disciplined, careful; Low scorers tend to be disorganized, undependable, negligent. You are neither organized or disorganized. Extraversion High scorers tend to be sociable, friendly, fun loving, talkative; Low scorers tend to be introverted, reserved, inhibited, quiet. You are extremely outgoing, social, and energetic. Agreeableness High scorers tend to be good natured, sympathetic, forgiving, courteous; Low scorers tend to be critical, rude, harsh, callous. You tend to consider the feelings of others. Neuroticism High scorers tend to be nervous, high-strung, insecure, worrying; Low scorers tend to be calm, relaxed, secure, hardy. You aren't particularly nervous, nor calm. So... This is what I am, according to a personality test... Interesting. I also took a color quiz. I am a BLUE. It actually sounded a lot like me. These things are wayyyy to accurate. Well sweet sauce. Adios :) XOXO

When the wild things bite

2010-04-20T17:10:00.000-07:00

So yeah, the immature people that decided not to grow up yet bit me. Yeah, it was stupid. If your reading this, do us all a favor and grow up cause people don't want to deal with your immaturity. But I am so thankful for all my good friends. I mean really, they are the best in the world. They are always there to help me and make everything better. Thank you so much. I love you guys forever and ever. <3 So lets see, whats going on in Tessa's life... umm Cheer! So thats going good :) I love my fantastic stunt group!! Alexann, Kelly, and Michelle... I LOVE YOU GIRLS :) I can tell it will be a good year. So yeah, thats what happening it my life. In case your were wondering. So thats all :) Love you all oh so very much!! :) XOXO P.S. I walk like a peinguin when I am sore.

I have noticed

2010-04-15T20:23:00.000-07:00

Its funny how things can change so quickly. Like from one day to the next. Its like you wake up a completely different person. With new feelings and a new outlook on almost everything. It can be for the best or the worst. But then again it will always change the next day. So me, currently I am just trying to figure things out, probably like the typical high school student. Then again, who said anything about me being typical? Have any of you ever heard your name whispered before? Its not a good feeling. Its like you just want to go yell at the person and tell them to say it to your face. Yeah, if any of you ever have a problem with me... grow up past the maturity of 5th grade and tell me to my face. But after all, most likely any of the people reading this have never really offended me. In fact, I love any and all of you that even take time to read this. Thank you :) Its so weird how your opinions of people change over time. Like I remember how certain people just frustrated and bugged me so much but now... they end up being a friend of mine. Like how me and this kid in science are writing a contract so we can get our seats back when we sat together. Cause we just had so much fun. Its so interesting how that all works out. I hope our teacher lets us move back. I liked that class :) Well this has just been my little random paragraph session :) I hope you all are doing great. Keep in touch with me cause I love you all :) Thanks for all you do. XOXO

These are the days

2010-04-07T22:53:00.000-07:00

These are the days were you look back and smile. It has been a great day for everyone. I mean really... EVERYONE ;) So lets see, I had a half day. YEAH. Then Cj came over. we had a video game competition. Well lets see, I owned at guitar hero. And the rest... yeah the rest I lost :( but whatevs I still got skills!!!! I also lost at pool but i think I've gotten a bit better. lets see then we watched the office. Pretty fantastic. Then I headed on over to Kay's house were I hung out with Tiffanie and Jorden!!! Love all those girls so much. Then played ultimate Frisbee. I did an epic fall. It was funny... everyone thought i was hurt. pshh... i don't break. :) Then Lets see... We all decorated Aaron's room and then on the way home we danced in the street. sounds pretty fantastic right!!! ahhh Yeahhh :) I love days like this. Alrighty well I love you all!!! XOXO

Its been awhile

2010-04-06T19:48:00.000-07:00

Its been awhile since I've been straight up honest. I am happy. I am smiling. Isn't that great? For reasons unknown I am so happy with everything now. I mean, I have great friends, great family, life is ummm great. Sure... math is blah but whatever. IT DON'T BRING ME DOWN :) But yeah, doing super duper great. Me Kelly and Kay dresses up like lady gaga to day. it was freaking amazing. we are making a music video :))) Yeah its pretty sick well... I am heading off. bye bye love you all!! XOXO

I did some more photography

2010-03-30T15:39:00.001-07:00

My window has the perfect lighting :) I think this one is pretty spiffy My Piano will always own my heart Hehe I like this one. It took some time though :) Now this is one of my all time favorites

Ohhh yeahhhh

Took this on the roof with kay. I love it

This took forever. but yeah, the window has perfect lighting :)

Sooo that is all. PLEASE tell me what you think. Love you all!

XOXO

Hey Everyone!

2010-03-30T15:19:00.000-07:00

Hey everyone so... i am doing pretty good right about now. Happy, having fun Yeahhh. Its the life. So its been a fairly good week. I am going to be in a fashion show soon!!! you should all come to it. I will put up more details on that later. but anywho, yesterday I went to Davids Bridal with Kelly yesterday and we found 2 GORGEOUS dresses. You should come to the show just to see me and her. We will be lookin smokin :) alrighty well thats about it. Love you all. XOXO

I got this

2010-03-20T19:37:00.000-07:00

Oh yeahhhh I got it down. Tessa, what do you have down? Did you learn how to do something? No my curious friend... this is not something you just learn... this, this is epic. Ohhhh I see, Mind telling me If I must. I have finally learned the talent of understanding life! Plus... I just downed a soda in 5 minutes. Weren't expecting that were you? So currently I am obsessed with the song "Black Parade." I don't know why it just... it kinda makes me feel... like I can push through things which... I mean who doesn't like a good "I DON'T CARE" song? I certainly Love them :) My favorite part of the song is from 3:00-3:40. It just... its almost like they are rebelling or in a revolution. Cool right? And if you listen close to what they are saying... it goes along of the lines of being strong, carrying on, and not breaking underneath pressure. Yeah neat things. Well I will just put this here for you to read :) XOXO Because the world will never take my (heart) Go and try; you’ll never break me.

2010-03-19T14:54:00.001-07:00

"Would you be, the savior of the broken, the beaten and the dammed?" Yeah, I will.

I felt

2010-03-19T14:49:00.001-07:00

Edgy. Like pushing the envelope. Like not caring. Like not being serious, and just being random. And I like it. I will do it. And I will like it. :) Last night was a lot of fun. I got some blizzards with Cj. It was a pretty freaking hilarious and fun night :) So yeahhhh thats about it :) Love you all. XOXO

uh... you there

2010-03-17T10:22:00.000-07:00

Hey. Hello. How are you? Me? Great. Kelly came over yesterday :) we had a fun time. We had a dance party at midnight it was pretty intense. We has a sugar rush. Then.... I don't really remember what happened after that. Symptoms from sugar hung over :) Then lets see.... we went to jumpstreet. Um... Yeah... I like that place. :) I also like blue T-Shirts ;) Wow I type a lot of smiley faces... In about an hour i will ride my bicycle over to Kelly's place and we will make a cake for her web show. I have been instructed to save a piece for Cj... If I don't I can't go to Dq. You see my dilemma. But yeah. Should be great. on Friday I am watching the Powerpuff girls at Kay's house. Who else misses that show?! Ummm ME. Oh yeah and me and my friends are being hobos at Ikea tonight. If anyone would like to come to that just text me. We need more hobos :) Alrighty well that about it. Hope you all have a great day! XOXO P.S. Mackenzie, I think I am going shopping on Saturday, if you would like to come :) Just facebook me.

So lets see...

2010-03-14T10:48:00.000-07:00

Last night was pretty fun :) Went to a dance. Danced with my friends. Danced with some guys. Yeah. Pretty great right? :) I got home. Watched house with my brother. Passed out,pretty sure my brother carried me up the stairs. So yeah... There we go :) Oh want to see a cool photo I did?

So this one took me awhile... but I think its pretty cool :)

Me and Kay... being normal :) This is my lovely Banana. Oh I love that kid :)

I just thought this was rather adorable :)

Alrighty well that's it. Love you all.

XOXO

I don't know why?

2010-03-12T22:01:00.000-07:00

I don't know why but... it just seems like I'm not as trusted anymore. But I can be trusted. I don't know why... but it just worried me. I mean, it is their choice and I can't force it but, I miss the time were it was like everyone trusted me. Even if they didn't know me. They just seemed to mesh with me and things just worked out. I kinda miss it... a lot. Well trust me when I say that I love you and you can trust me with anything. XOXO

Hum de dum de doooo

2010-03-07T21:51:00.000-07:00

How am I doing? I am doing great! I like writing that. It is fun to write. Uh Yeah. So Kelly made my night with her scrapbook. I turn to the last page. It scared me :) It just kinda jumped out at me and I was like "ahh!" Plus I look really spastic in the picture :) Have you ever laughed until you cried? Its pretty fantastic. I am too hyper right now. CALM DOWN. NOOOOOOO. hehehe On Facebook I joined the group Dumbledores army... just saying. I felt pretty beast. My favorite food is PB&J... just sayin. allrighty bye bye kiddos. Love you all! XOXO

Strawberry Wine

2010-03-05T17:23:00.000-07:00

It makes me smile. When I think of a summer love or your first sip of love... it makes me smile. It makes my heart flutter and makes me breathe really fast. And it makes me lose my breathe... I should really catch it sometime :) But I don't want to. Oh flutters. And Butterflies. So uncontrollable. What do them butterflies think?! That I'm a flower?! Leave me alone :) Then again its better than bee's. But yes... strawberry wine. It makes me smile. It makes me giggle. I love you all. I am heading out to to my other home (Kay's house) Your the cheery on top of my sundae.

XOXO

Cause

2010-03-04T18:53:00.000-07:00

Cause when the thunder sounds Cause when the bubbles pop Cause when the sun falls down Cause when the sky turns black Cause when the oceans crash Cause when the fire burns Cause when the clock sounds Cause when the eagle eyes blink Cause when the camera flashes Cause when Summers leave and Winters come Cause when memories fade I will be fine. I felt like being poetic. Lyrics? XOXO

This ones for the girls

2010-03-04T14:54:00.000-07:00

Wednesday I went to mutual and there was a seminar on body image and how society makes us feel wrong about our self image. It gave us percentages and startling statistics. It was truly shocking. I'm sure every girl has one through these feelings and they sting so bad. Well I wanted all of you to know that I love you dearly, I think you are so gorgeous and you aren't allowed to deny it. I love you all so dearly and I just thought you should know that you are my friends... I think you are the most beautiful things on the face of this earth. I love you all so dearly. This one goes to Banana: My best friend, I love you so much. i think you are so sweet and adorable. I am so lucky to have you as a friend. I am so glad I was able to meet you. I think you are beautiful and I never want you to deny it. I love you so much kiddo, forever and ever. This one goes to Sarah: Ahhh my girl, I miss you. I know you probably didn't see this seminar but I want you to know that I also think you are beautiful. You are so sweet and funny. I really miss seeing you. You were truly a highlight of my day back in middle school. I love you so much and I know I will see you soon. Love you forever and ever. This one goes to Emily: oh ms. sweetheart. I love seeing your smile, it always lights up the room. I also... you know this is coming, I want you to know that I think you are beautiful. You are so sweet and I am privilege to know you. Thank you so much for all that you do and always being there for me. I love you forever and ever :) This one goes to Kay: Oh my best friend. I love you so much. You are so gorgeous and beautiful and I am so thankful for that summer when I was able to meet you. I am truly privilege to know you. I love doing things with you. I love you. Your like the sister I never had. I love you forever and ever. I am sorry if I forgot anyone but if any of you even took the time to read this, just know that I love you all. Your beautiful inside and out, I promise :) Love you all forever XOXO

I love theatre

2010-03-02T18:56:00.001-07:00

I love my theatre class. Here are some of the things that happened today: "Its purring at me!" "It doesn't like us!!!!!" "Its making weird noises at us!" *Push button *Button goes up "NOOOOO!!!!!" Oh goodness. So we were recording tapes in there today. i actually felt technologically challenged... it was rather sad. We had quite a few technical difficulties but it was on the fun side of things. So yes. Hilight of my day. Then after school I hung around with Emily, Alina, Erica and Kelly. It was quite a fun experience. Me and Kelly did some backhandsprings on the concrete. The security guard was rather confused about it all. Then... we walked to the parking lot. I'm sure the guy behind us thought we were pretty awesome. Oh the joys of 4 crazy girls having a conversation. LOVE :) Well... I willl see you guys around!!! XOXO lobster

Oh my goodness!

2010-03-01T14:54:00.000-07:00

Oh my goodness its March ALLREADY! Can you believe this? It came so quickly. But its finally spring, one of my favorite seasons. Everything is blooming, and its almost like everything is starting over. Plus I can finally wear my sundresses that have been waiting in my closet for me to wear. I am so psyched! Plus today I came home from school and my mom had gotten me some Tulips... My favorite :) I walked home from school today, the weather felt fantastic. Plus the school was playing some music so I sang along with it. It was pretty fun :)

Oh guess what, Kelly and I are going to be in a fashion show!! I know... we are silly but, we will have fun. We are going to showcasing the beautiful formal dresses. I am going to wear my pretty princess dress and my heels. Yeah I know... I live in my own fairytale reality.

I talked to Kay for a fantastic 2 hours last night! I love having late conversations with her. They are completely random but... this one was a good one. We talked about our little day dreams and fantasies (Park benches, rain and pick up trucks :) ) It was great. It put me in a good mood and I fell asleep smiling. Plus I told her that I've decided that I'm going to wear red lipstick when I get married so that when I kiss whoever I end up with... he will have red lipstick all over him. Yeah.. I know :)

I want a bouquet of daisy's and go for a walk down the street. Come with me?

XOXO lobster

I just hypervenilated

2010-02-28T22:30:00.001-07:00

These last dresses... I found my perfect wedding dress, but which one?!!! 1,2,3 TELL ME PLEASE. Wow, calm down, I am seriously hypervenilating... whooo.

XOXO

I will be

2010-02-28T15:10:00.000-07:00

I'll do what you want me to do. I'll say what you want me to say. I'll be who you want me to be. I will be: Strong. Happy. An Example. A do'er not a sayer. A witness. A peacemaker. Courageous. Faithful. Loyal. Positive. Steadfast. Immovable. Me. I'll be what you want me to be. XOXO

Sorry

2010-02-28T10:11:00.000-07:00

Sorry, I know this is random but I ate all my gummy bears... and I feel sad. I'm sorry gummy bears... :( Just an empty bag of gummy bears... sitting on my desk, looking at me... like its peering into my soul. XOXO lobster

heh heh heh

2010-02-27T13:31:00.000-07:00

I LOBSTER YOU!!! Oh yeah, how is that for fantastic? So I played with a Sheltie today!!! Yay! Fun stuff, it was a cute doggie :) Its name was Maggie and it was VERY hyper. In case you guys didn't know... I love dogs. Okay :) I lost the game. Oh snap.

So i have to work on a research paper... lovely. Isn't that just exhilerating? I thought so too. This has got to be the most random post EVER.

I really want to watch a Bourne movie with my friends. I was talking to Jiddles about it. Well... I really want to.

Well I am going to get to work, tackle my paper. Whoooo. Well I love you all!!!

XOXO

I HATE PICKLES. But I LOVE Armadillos... and Snuggies. Did I just blow your mind?

Heyyyy

2010-02-27T00:16:00.000-07:00

Hey you guys, I'm feeling pretty good. whooo. okay random. well going to bed. :) nighty night. XOXO ily oh the things of young love, especially when you are four years old!!! oh love :) hahaha "do you love her? I don't know yet. Will you marry her? hmmm maybe." -Four year olds.* *Did this make your day? it made mine... this is a true story :)

Today at Lunch

2010-02-26T15:34:00.000-07:00

So today at lunch I while sitting with Savannah and Alina I was saying how my blog is getting more and more cliche. Which means I am getting cliche. hmmm... should I be concerned. I mean, i was looking back at my old posts, I was so sad and I was just kinda going through the phases. But now, I am actually happy and enjoying and savoring things. But... is it better to be cliche and happy than upset and different. I mean I am still the deep, understanding Tessa that I used to be... now I just wear the smile on my face and actually mean it when I use it. They told me that the life I was living is becoming cliche... but that it wasn't a bad thing. But my life... is cliche. I don't really know what to think. Do I change myself? But this is a time were I have actually been legitimately happy. Do I want to change it? I might mess it up? I know I have my moments were I feel like things our falling but I am relatively happy... which has been making me cliche. why am I getting upset over one stupid word? I don't understand! You guys probably think I'm stupid... and you probably think that I'm just a stupid cliche high school girl. Ugh cause I know I am. How fantastic. I mean... I always say that I'd rather be different than what people call normal but now I think I might be becoming the high school definition of normal. But if I'm happy... should it even matter. The answer: no, it shouldn't. It doesn't matter. I don't care. You like that? Tessa is herself. Not a definition of cliche. She is Tessa. She is who she wants to be. And I want to be, happy. I don't care what people tell me. If I'm cliche or not. Cause when it comes down to it, I am me. Yeah, Tessa is back, watch out world. XOXO ily

When I'm alone

2010-02-23T22:55:00.000-07:00

When I'm alone in my room, I either A.) go insane or B.) Do what I did tonight which is take pictures and edit them. I think they are pretty legit. Want to seem them. you know how this goes. this one goes out to all the young women :) Even though I spelled it wrong. :) This picture took me FOREVER to get perfectly. i had to stack my camera up on a ton of books so that is would be able to see my reflection. I felt accomplished This is one of my favorites. I think it has a lot of emotion and its really powerful This one... I just like to laugh and take pictures while spinning... okay people? :) All the roses wilt... but this one stands up. Inspiring. Well there you go people. That's what I do!!! Tell me what you think :) XOXO

In your eyes

2010-02-23T14:59:00.000-07:00

Well I have had a pretty good day :) I went to Maddy's place and had pancakes with her, Kay, and Jd.... even though he didn't get any, SORRY :) Please forgive me :) And lets see... oh yeah1!! They gave me a ride to seminary. Soooo much fun. I wished they went to my school. Oh how I love those girls :) Well to the point of this post, I have questions for you guys! Well here we go:

How do you see me from your eyes?
What highschool stereotype would I fit into?
And... lets see, What should I be when I grow up?

okay, thats all :) If you have time to answer then go for it and... ANSWER!! If you answer I'll answer these questions for you too. FUN STUFF. Allrighty, Well love you guys oodles to much :)

XOXO ily

I did some editing

2010-02-21T14:07:00.000-07:00

Want to see some of my random photography things? I think you do!!! :)

hahaha oh I love that kid :)

I thought this one was pretty legit. Well love you all. :)

XOXO

Today

2010-02-21T13:58:00.000-07:00

I went all natural. Even no hair in my face. I like it. I actually felt kinda pretty with it. Want to see some pictures... :)

You like it?? I actually kinda did. normally I really don't like myself with no makeup but i kinda liked this one. Plus it would look really cute with this one headband I found...

See there is my hair... yeah. Sorry it's sideways. Whatevs. but yeah, i like this. I think I iwll do it more often. its really quick, easy and simple :)

Well... i will be right here if you need to find me. Love you all!

XOXO

Black and White

2010-02-20T18:57:00.000-07:00

I had a fun day with Kay, went to the movies, went to Forever 21 got rained on and pinky fingers. yeahhhh fun stuff. i am in a fantastic mood. I have new shoes... i like them a lot. I have a pretty headband... I love it... a lot. And I have amazing friends. I love them... a lot. :) Hmmm that just felt weird. I have questions. But should I ask them. Should I be direct and up front... yes. I mean after all its what i tell everyone else to do. But why do I feel that I seem so different? Am I? Like my case is different. Is it? Ughhh great. XOXO It starts with a match, goes to a flame, goes to a fire. I put in a couple of Duralolgs... Just hope it doesn't go out. Lyrics?

None of you should...

2010-02-19T23:26:00.000-07:00

DON'T: DON'T THINK. DON'T OVER ANALYZE. DON'T REGRET. DON'T HOLD BACK. DON'T SAY. DON'T OVER PLAN. most important: DON'T WORRY DO: Be spontaneous. Do Smile. Do laugh. Pick up the pieces, walk away. Be free. DO; do what you say you'll do. Hold to you promises. Be who you want to be, not someone else. MOST IMPORTANT: Be HAPPY We got one life, lets live it right. When you open the doors, give the devil your best face and say, 'Hey world, Tessa is here.' When you leave look them in the eyes and say 'Did I just blow your mind?' Live like we are dying. Don't look back, you might just miss whats coming. XOXO

Being sick

2010-02-19T21:02:00.000-07:00

I have not seen the sun for two days... hahahaha... I am hopeless. I just spent about 5-6 hours, downstairs, alone, in my snuggie, with jiddles jacket to keep me company... watching Harry Potter. Yeah... I know. You know what is really good... frozen grapes. They taste like ice cream. Tessa... your weird I'm on medication dang it! I can't be held accountable! Soooo....? Well I think I will watch some more Harry Potter. I better be feeling better tomorrow... cause i really want to see Valentines day with Kay... :) Alrighty well toodles! I love you all! XOXO

I wonder

2010-02-17T20:29:00.000-07:00

I wonder why Kay asked for my adress. You know where I live. WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO TO ME!?!?! I hate surprises. You all know that. I mean, I'm cool with being surprised but when I know I will eventually be surprised but not know when and how... I loose my marbles. Allrighty. Well... I am now a mixture of excitement and confusion. Oh goodness. Love you. hugs and kisses XOXO

Photo by Kay

2010-02-17T18:49:00.000-07:00

Want to see what me and one of my best friends did yesterday? Yeah, you do. Is this not the most amazing thing you've ever seen? WIN Photo done by Kay Silliness done by Tessa and Kay XOXO

Stop and Stare

2010-02-17T18:43:00.000-07:00

Stop and Stare. That has just kinda been in my head lately. Not the song, just the phrase. When I woke up this morning my eyes looked HUMONGOUS!! It was awesome. Despite the fact I didn't feel good :( But that kinda made me happy. Its been a lonely day. The one thing I really hate about being sick is that I can't hug people... it really sucks. Well... mehh, I'll get over it. Alrighty well I love you all kiddos :) XOXO

I really don't like

2010-02-17T15:09:00.000-07:00

this whole being sick program. If it could go away ASAP, I would be happy. My throat hurts, and whenever I cough or talk it feels weird. Dang it. Well if you are looking for me I will be just right here, in my room... XOXO My tummy feels bubbly

just now

2010-02-16T20:37:00.001-07:00

On facebook I read about some people who's relatives have died from cancer. I cried. And I listened to my music. And I cried. I know... I'm pathetic or maybe your just heartless. Come on Tessa, smile, pick up the peices, and lets walk.

I can't handle titles

2010-02-16T20:23:00.000-07:00

Isn't it SO weird how people are different on the Internet and how they are in person. It really bugs me. I mean its like 'oh yeah, I LOVE YOU TESSA!!!' but in reality there is no conversation even if someone tries to make some. It really is getting under my skin. which I know is a stupid thing to let bother me. Its just... weird. Well to Savannah, I am doing good. just the norm. I really have something to show you. But you weren't at lunch to day... oh wells :) I brought you a peanut butter cookie but you weren't there so... me and Alina ate it. hehehe yeah. Well I am doing good. Not much really. I love you oh so much darling. I told Kay I felt like a fish in an astronaut suit floating in orbit. Pretty sure she thinks I'm the weirdest thing ever :) I am pretty sure I'm getting sick. Well... I am heading out now. bye bye. I love you all. really XOXO quirkay

I realized

2010-02-14T14:47:00.000-07:00

I pick all of the pink and purple hearts out of my candy hearts. Please be my pink or purple candy heart? :) Pretty please. Allrighty then. XOXO

Btw

2010-02-14T10:37:00.000-07:00

Sarah... Your wearin a dress too :) Wow... I am looking forward to this. Bahahaha Such a long time away. Whatevs, sure I'm not the only one. XOXO P.S. Did you know I have bumpy freckles on my arm? Yeah, me neither :)

That would've been so....

2010-02-13T23:06:00.001-07:00

Dang it, why didn't I think of that at that moment. It would've been so perfect. Meh... to late now. I'll get over it. I really need to gice my Valentine's Day presents... I will probably do that on Monday. Fo sho. hahah silly word. The presents are sitting on my desk. I like them. I think I did a pretty swell job. Okie dokie. Nighty night kiddos. XOXO "Can you feel this magic in the air? It must've been the way you kissed me. Fell in love when I saw you standing there. Today was a Fairytale"

I have

2010-02-12T23:38:00.000-07:00

Actually thought of the possibility. Tonight... someone just brought it up sooo... Yeah... I have thought. :) When I yelled into my pillow I started crying. Not because I was sad... maybe because I was happy. Wow, pounds like drums. XOXO

Conversations with Kay at 11:19

2010-02-12T23:16:00.000-07:00

Photos: Kay: AH!!! Dang, that it so adorable, it hurts Tessa: I know. It makes me happy but also sad. Kay: Exactly Tessa: Sad cause its what I really want, Happy because I know I will be there someday. Dreams: Kay: My fortune said my dreams would come true. Tessa's thoughts: Can mine come true? Kay I am soooo happy you have no idea. I hope your dreams DO come true :) Future: Kay: I am so making a sign Tessa: Me too. and when I get engaged, first thing I will do, climb on my roof and yell, I AM IN LOVE!!!! Oh kay... just watch one day when we have moved away, you will get a call from me and I will scream into the phone and you will know why :) Then 2 months will pass and you will be wearing a blue dress with cowgirl boots. Just watch, I am right :) I love you all. you are the cherry on top of my life :) XOXO P.S. Savannah, you will be wearing a dress too. And so many more of you, just watch, I am right :)

People

2010-02-09T20:41:00.001-07:00

Nathan Fish... is a very cool kid. Just saying. Made my day so much better to just spit everything out and for him to just take it from me. Thanks friend. Really :) XOXO

Short Circuits

2010-02-09T14:54:00.000-07:00

I love to love you out loud! Like how my songs convey my mood. I am soooo obvious :) But then again... that can be a good thing sometimes. So I was walking down my street and skipping in circles. It was fun. And I was yelling and laughing. Phew.... its a good life. Oh and Savannah, I love you. Okay, just sayin. :) hehehe random but... I DOOOOOOO WOOOO hyper. This post has a lot of short paragraphs. Its like how I'm thinking right now. Like in short little circuits. My hair made me look like a lion today. Tessa is on the PROWL :) Allrighty... I'm done. Love you all :)))) XOXO

Just putting it out there

2010-02-08T17:21:00.001-07:00

Your my kind of rain <3 Like Love from a drunken sky. You make me Crazier, litteraly :) Just saying it. Allrighty XOXO ily