I just hypervenilated

These last dresses... I found my perfect wedding dress, but which one?!!! 1,2,3 TELL ME PLEASE. Wow, calm down, I am seriously hypervenilating... whooo.

XOXO

I will be

I'll do what you want me to do. I'll say what you want me to say. I'll be who you want me to be. I will be: Strong. Happy. An Example. A do'er not a sayer. A witness. A peacemaker. Courageous. Faithful. Loyal. Positive. Steadfast. Immovable. Me. I'll be what you want me to be. XOXO

Sorry

Sorry, I know this is random but I ate all my gummy bears... and I feel sad. I'm sorry gummy bears... :( Just an empty bag of gummy bears... sitting on my desk, looking at me... like its peering into my soul. XOXO lobster

heh heh heh

I LOBSTER YOU!!! Oh yeah, how is that for fantastic? So I played with a Sheltie today!!! Yay! Fun stuff, it was a cute doggie :) Its name was Maggie and it was VERY hyper. In case you guys didn't know... I love dogs. Okay :) I lost the game. Oh snap.

So i have to work on a research paper... lovely. Isn't that just exhilerating? I thought so too. This has got to be the most random post EVER.

I really want to watch a Bourne movie with my friends. I was talking to Jiddles about it. Well... I really want to.

Well I am going to get to work, tackle my paper. Whoooo. Well I love you all!!!

XOXO

I HATE PICKLES. But I LOVE Armadillos... and Snuggies. Did I just blow your mind?

Heyyyy

Hey you guys, I'm feeling pretty good. whooo. okay random. well going to bed. :) nighty night. XOXO ily oh the things of young love, especially when you are four years old!!! oh love :) hahaha "do you love her? I don't know yet. Will you marry her? hmmm maybe." -Four year olds.* *Did this make your day? it made mine... this is a true story :)

Today at Lunch

So today at lunch I while sitting with Savannah and Alina I was saying how my blog is getting more and more cliche. Which means I am getting cliche. hmmm... should I be concerned. I mean, i was looking back at my old posts, I was so sad and I was just kinda going through the phases. But now, I am actually happy and enjoying and savoring things. But... is it better to be cliche and happy than upset and different. I mean I am still the deep, understanding Tessa that I used to be... now I just wear the smile on my face and actually mean it when I use it. They told me that the life I was living is becoming cliche... but that it wasn't a bad thing. But my life... is cliche. I don't really know what to think. Do I change myself? But this is a time were I have actually been legitimately happy. Do I want to change it? I might mess it up? I know I have my moments were I feel like things our falling but I am relatively happy... which has been making me cliche. why am I getting upset over one stupid word? I don't understand! You guys probably think I'm stupid... and you probably think that I'm just a stupid cliche high school girl. Ugh cause I know I am. How fantastic. I mean... I always say that I'd rather be different than what people call normal but now I think I might be becoming the high school definition of normal. But if I'm happy... should it even matter. The answer: no, it shouldn't. It doesn't matter. I don't care. You like that? Tessa is herself. Not a definition of cliche. She is Tessa. She is who she wants to be. And I want to be, happy. I don't care what people tell me. If I'm cliche or not. Cause when it comes down to it, I am me. Yeah, Tessa is back, watch out world. XOXO ily

When I'm alone

When I'm alone in my room, I either A.) go insane or B.) Do what I did tonight which is take pictures and edit them. I think they are pretty legit. Want to seem them. you know how this goes. this one goes out to all the young women :) Even though I spelled it wrong. :) This picture took me FOREVER to get perfectly. i had to stack my camera up on a ton of books so that is would be able to see my reflection. I felt accomplished This is one of my favorites. I think it has a lot of emotion and its really powerful This one... I just like to laugh and take pictures while spinning... okay people? :) All the roses wilt... but this one stands up. Inspiring. Well there you go people. That's what I do!!! Tell me what you think :) XOXO

In your eyes

Well I have had a pretty good day :) I went to Maddy's place and had pancakes with her, Kay, and Jd.... even though he didn't get any, SORRY :) Please forgive me :) And lets see... oh yeah1!! They gave me a ride to seminary. Soooo much fun. I wished they went to my school. Oh how I love those girls :) Well to the point of this post, I have questions for you guys! Well here we go:

1. How do you see me from your eyes?
2. What highschool stereotype would I fit into?
3. And... lets see, What should I be when I grow up?

okay, thats all :) If you have time to answer then go for it and... ANSWER!! If you answer I'll answer these questions for you too. FUN STUFF. Allrighty, Well love you guys oodles to much :)

XOXO ily

I did some editing

Want to see some of my random photography things? I think you do!!! :)

hahaha oh I love that kid :)

I thought this one was pretty legit. Well love you all. :)

XOXO

Today

I went all natural. Even no hair in my face. I like it. I actually felt kinda pretty with it. Want to see some pictures... :)

You like it?? I actually kinda did. normally I really don't like myself with no makeup but i kinda liked this one. Plus it would look really cute with this one headband I found...

See there is my hair... yeah. Sorry it's sideways. Whatevs. but yeah, i like this. I think I iwll do it more often. its really quick, easy and simple :)

Well... i will be right here if you need to find me. Love you all!

XOXO

Black and White

I had a fun day with Kay, went to the movies, went to Forever 21 got rained on and pinky fingers. yeahhhh fun stuff. i am in a fantastic mood. I have new shoes... i like them a lot. I have a pretty headband... I love it... a lot. And I have amazing friends. I love them... a lot. :) Hmmm that just felt weird. I have questions. But should I ask them. Should I be direct and up front... yes. I mean after all its what i tell everyone else to do. But why do I feel that I seem so different? Am I? Like my case is different. Is it? Ughhh great. XOXO It starts with a match, goes to a flame, goes to a fire. I put in a couple of Duralolgs... Just hope it doesn't go out. Lyrics?

None of you should...

DON'T: DON'T THINK. DON'T OVER ANALYZE. DON'T REGRET. DON'T HOLD BACK. DON'T SAY. DON'T OVER PLAN. most important: DON'T WORRY DO: Be spontaneous. Do Smile. Do laugh. Pick up the pieces, walk away. Be free. DO; do what you say you'll do. Hold to you promises. Be who you want to be, not someone else. MOST IMPORTANT: Be HAPPY We got one life, lets live it right. When you open the doors, give the devil your best face and say, 'Hey world, Tessa is here.' When you leave look them in the eyes and say 'Did I just blow your mind?' Live like we are dying. Don't look back, you might just miss whats coming. XOXO

Being sick

I have not seen the sun for two days... hahahaha... I am hopeless. I just spent about 5-6 hours, downstairs, alone, in my snuggie, with jiddles jacket to keep me company... watching Harry Potter. Yeah... I know. You know what is really good... frozen grapes. They taste like ice cream. Tessa... your weird I'm on medication dang it! I can't be held accountable! Soooo....? Well I think I will watch some more Harry Potter. I better be feeling better tomorrow... cause i really want to see Valentines day with Kay... :) Alrighty well toodles! I love you all! XOXO

I wonder

I wonder why Kay asked for my adress. You know where I live. WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO TO ME!?!?! I hate surprises. You all know that. I mean, I'm cool with being surprised but when I know I will eventually be surprised but not know when and how... I loose my marbles. Allrighty. Well... I am now a mixture of excitement and confusion. Oh goodness. Love you. hugs and kisses XOXO

Photo by Kay

Want to see what me and one of my best friends did yesterday? Yeah, you do. Is this not the most amazing thing you've ever seen? WIN Photo done by Kay Silliness done by Tessa and Kay XOXO

Stop and Stare

Stop and Stare. That has just kinda been in my head lately. Not the song, just the phrase. When I woke up this morning my eyes looked HUMONGOUS!! It was awesome. Despite the fact I didn't feel good :( But that kinda made me happy. Its been a lonely day. The one thing I really hate about being sick is that I can't hug people... it really sucks. Well... mehh, I'll get over it. Alrighty well I love you all kiddos :) XOXO

I really don't like

this whole being sick program. If it could go away ASAP, I would be happy. My throat hurts, and whenever I cough or talk it feels weird. Dang it. Well if you are looking for me I will be just right here, in my room... XOXO My tummy feels bubbly

just now

On facebook I read about some people who's relatives have died from cancer. I cried. And I listened to my music. And I cried. I know... I'm pathetic or maybe your just heartless. Come on Tessa, smile, pick up the peices, and lets walk.

I can't handle titles

Isn't it SO weird how people are different on the Internet and how they are in person. It really bugs me. I mean its like 'oh yeah, I LOVE YOU TESSA!!!' but in reality there is no conversation even if someone tries to make some. It really is getting under my skin. which I know is a stupid thing to let bother me. Its just... weird. Well to Savannah, I am doing good. just the norm. I really have something to show you. But you weren't at lunch to day... oh wells :) I brought you a peanut butter cookie but you weren't there so... me and Alina ate it. hehehe yeah. Well I am doing good. Not much really. I love you oh so much darling. I told Kay I felt like a fish in an astronaut suit floating in orbit. Pretty sure she thinks I'm the weirdest thing ever :) I am pretty sure I'm getting sick. Well... I am heading out now. bye bye. I love you all. really XOXO quirkay

I realized

I pick all of the pink and purple hearts out of my candy hearts. Please be my pink or purple candy heart? :) Pretty please. Allrighty then. XOXO

Btw

Sarah... Your wearin a dress too :) Wow... I am looking forward to this. Bahahaha Such a long time away. Whatevs, sure I'm not the only one. XOXO P.S. Did you know I have bumpy freckles on my arm? Yeah, me neither :)

That would've been so....

Dang it, why didn't I think of that at that moment. It would've been so perfect. Meh... to late now. I'll get over it. I really need to gice my Valentine's Day presents... I will probably do that on Monday. Fo sho. hahah silly word. The presents are sitting on my desk. I like them. I think I did a pretty swell job. Okie dokie. Nighty night kiddos. XOXO "Can you feel this magic in the air? It must've been the way you kissed me. Fell in love when I saw you standing there. Today was a Fairytale"

I have

Actually thought of the possibility. Tonight... someone just brought it up sooo... Yeah... I have thought. :) When I yelled into my pillow I started crying. Not because I was sad... maybe because I was happy. Wow, pounds like drums. XOXO

Conversations with Kay at 11:19

Photos: Kay: AH!!! Dang, that it so adorable, it hurts Tessa: I know. It makes me happy but also sad. Kay: Exactly Tessa: Sad cause its what I really want, Happy because I know I will be there someday. Dreams: Kay: My fortune said my dreams would come true. Tessa's thoughts: Can mine come true? Kay I am soooo happy you have no idea. I hope your dreams DO come true :) Future: Kay: I am so making a sign Tessa: Me too. and when I get engaged, first thing I will do, climb on my roof and yell, I AM IN LOVE!!!! Oh kay... just watch one day when we have moved away, you will get a call from me and I will scream into the phone and you will know why :) Then 2 months will pass and you will be wearing a blue dress with cowgirl boots. Just watch, I am right :) I love you all. you are the cherry on top of my life :) XOXO P.S. Savannah, you will be wearing a dress too. And so many more of you, just watch, I am right :)

People

Nathan Fish... is a very cool kid. Just saying. Made my day so much better to just spit everything out and for him to just take it from me. Thanks friend. Really :) XOXO

Short Circuits

I love to love you out loud! Like how my songs convey my mood. I am soooo obvious :) But then again... that can be a good thing sometimes. So I was walking down my street and skipping in circles. It was fun. And I was yelling and laughing. Phew.... its a good life. Oh and Savannah, I love you. Okay, just sayin. :) hehehe random but... I DOOOOOOO WOOOO hyper. This post has a lot of short paragraphs. Its like how I'm thinking right now. Like in short little circuits. My hair made me look like a lion today. Tessa is on the PROWL :) Allrighty... I'm done. Love you all :)))) XOXO

Just putting it out there

Your my kind of rain <3 Like Love from a drunken sky. You make me Crazier, litteraly :) Just saying it. Allrighty XOXO ily

Please

Slow me down. Let me take it in before you take it away. The moments where I am so happy, the moments I am with you, go by so quickly. All I can do is ask why. Why, why, why, why? I wish I could push Pause. When I am there, smiling and just having trouble believing I am not dreaming, I wish I could just make it slow. "Slow me down, don't let love pass me by." I just realized something, I was talking to Kay last night, we were talking about blue eyes I think, I said I wish I had blue eyes, she asked what color mine were, I said mine our green and mysterious, no one can figure out the color. I am a mystery just waiting to be solved :) You guys are the cherry on top of my life. Just letting you know :) XOXO

Let's

Let's: Run, skip, play, jump, walk, smile, laugh, talk, whisper, hug, kiss, remember, reminisce, cry, leave it behind, NOT THINK, believe, dream, hold on, be strong, love. I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you. I love all of you. LOVE, such a powerful word. here is my definition of love. Love: adj;verb: To be extremely confused yet utterly happy at the same time. To feel as if your heart beats outside your chest and everyone can see it except the one person you want to see it. To feel happiness, hate, doubt, hopefulness and just pure anger in one feeling... but you still somehow appreciate it. Yeah...... okay. I'm done. I'm sleepy. I love you all. I love my family. I love my friends. I love you kiddo's. Forever and always. XOXO

Hey i think i'll write you something!

Soul Rockin. Just wanted to say, I am so happy right now. I mean how did I ever get this lucky? Middle School was horrible. This is my bounce back. I love highschool. I love my friends. I love everything. I love you. I love life. Life is great. Just sayin :) Me and Gracie girl sang Bad Romance on the way to lunch. I love spontaneous moments. Savannah and Sarah, I thought of our Pepto Bismol rap today. That was seriously epic. we need to re-create it sometime. Seriously, soon :) Today in language arts i was moving my arms like I was a shark. It was pretty awesome. Then I showed my teacher and told her to not make me write an essay, while I was acting like a shark. I think I scared her. Maybe now I won't have to write it!!!! :) probably not :( yucky. Psh whatever, I'm cool. Allrighty I'm headin out :) XOXOily He's got something special He could be the one. He could be the one. He could be the onnnnneeeee. Sorry random but I can hear it right now. It is rather cute :) Respectable Hannah, respectable.

hmmmm....

rawr. rawr. rawry rawr. hehehe Mr. Pond go rawr today. wow. I sound like a 5 year old. ok tessa... time to grow up. But I don't want to! Tessa... you kinda have to, your 15 Psh... Who says!? Umm... Life. Well its not the boss of me. I didn't even choose to grow up! Tessa. Tessa. Tessa. nope. I give up WIN I felt like Peter Pan right there. Like 'NOPE! I am not growing up. NOT HAPPENING. not in this life time buddy!' But yeah, I want to be one year older. one more year, then I am a bucket full of bliss. BLISS such a silly word. I have a bag of skittles on my desk. How delightful ;) This is going nowhere. Okie dokie. Bye Kiddos! XOXO ily

Something short and sweet from me

"Being fearless is not having the absence of fear. Its having the courage to face it." - Tessa Wow, I can't believe I came up with that. Now lets just set it in place and live by it. XOXOily

I did these all by myself :)

You like them!?!?! I did them all by myself :) and just in my room :)))) With all the little things i had. Pretty nifty huh? Welllll yeahhh I thought it was cool. Okie Dokie

XOXO ily

You like it?!!!! Cause i like it! I think its pretty cooooollll!!!! It could be an advertisement! :) hehehe 'whoa Tessa... chill.' NOOOO!!! well yeah. I thought you guys would like that. I will be putting up another one soon :)

Long live Coco

Racecar spelled backwards is, racecar. Its seems like all technology is not working for me today. Except my phone, which I dropped today... Whoever said Razors break easily... My phone has proven you wrong. I have dropped it several times on cement, tile and any other surface you can think of. I am pretty sure it has been ran over by a car and water got spilt on it. yeah, my phone is INDESTRUCTIBLE. I am in a weird mood. I just spent the last 15 minutes staring at my slinky. Yeppp... Then I talked to Maddy. We have to write essay's. Stupid harsh grading teachers. Yeah! I AM TALKING TO YOU! Even though you are one of my favorite teachers and you are really funny and nice. You just grade very hard. But yeah, you are cool... I doubt she will read this. heheh hi. I just thought of that commercial for tbs where Stewie from family guy kept screaming mom, mom, mommy, mom, mom, mommy. Then the mom yells 'WHAT?!' at him really angry then he smiles and says hi. :) I have done this to my mother on several occasions. In fact... just thought of something, when i was little, if I was going to tell my mommy something, and I forgot what I was going to say i would just say 'I love you.' Well... I thought it was cute. Hmmm... POSSESSED. Psyche. Okay... I am done. tee hee. wow that's weird. blah. okay. GOOD BYE. FAREWELL RAMBO!!!! (inside joke. Sorry to leave you out :) ) XOXO oh and p.s. Conan O'brian has been canceled. i am angry. I like Conan. I often quote him on a daily bases. like in Spanish class today, and in seminary. They were talking in funny Spanish accents so I yelled out 'CONANDO!!! Si, soy CONANDO!!!' Yeah. I'm weird. But in case you guys didn't know, I'm with Coco. Yeah. I love you Coco. You are cool Coco. I wish you were still on NBC Coco. Bye Coco. Long live Coco. hmmm... When i read back on this, I sound weird. I am not that strange kiddo's. I'm not weird, I'm just a bit unwell. hmm okay. bye bye. XOXO ily

Confused?

Yeah I don't know. Whatever. *Float* *Float* *Float* Debating. to ask. a question. hmmm.... *Debate* *Debate* *Debate* hmmm... *Float* *Float* *Float* *Crash* hmm... maybe... nooooo... Nope. mwahhaha no. Wow, you are probably confused. hehehe WIN. Ok, you know where you can find me. Just hear. Typing an essay. Bleh. Okay. Call me. i want to procrastinate some more. okie dokie. XOXO *Float* *Float* *Float* *Wabam!*