Feelings

I'm stuck in a hard spot. I can't really say why but just let it be known I'm stuck in a confused and difficult hard spot. It is kinda in my head. The other person really isn't helping me get out of this ditch I've created. It is almost like I am a shovel and I just kept digging and digging until I can't anymore and once I hit the bottom of the pit I can't stand up. So yeah, I am stuck in a ditch and probably will be for awhile until I can get my feelings and emotions to settle down. So if my posts get all confuzzled you know why. Because Tessa is in a emotional pit. XOXO I also agree with Jack's post about change. I can feel it coming. I want it to come right now. I just hope things change the way I want them to.

Can we all be beautiful?

Yes. Yes we can all be beautiful. When I say beautiful I don't mean putting on eye liner and cute clothes I mean being truly beautiful. We can all bring people up and we can all make people feel better. It can be easy and it can be difficult. When you just see that random person on the street you can tell them they are beautiful. That can be hard or easy. When you see one of your closest friends you can tell them they are beautiful. This can be hard or easy. You can even tell yourself that your beautiful. Surprisingly that can be hard or easy. In a nut shell true beauty is within and not out. The people I know are extremly beautiful! ;) On the other note of looking beautiful. Can we all look beautiful? Yes. My friend Erin told me that we are often hardest on our self. I agree with her. We can sometimes be the one that makes us feel the worse. Instead of looking at yourself in the mirror in the morning and thinking to yourself, "I look horrible," think "Haha! I look funny!" Not only will it make you smile it will just brighten your day a little bit. Also, the only opinion that matters is yours. Don't let those people that feel bad about themselves bring you down. I mean that is their problem not yours. If my opinion does matter to you just to let you know, I think all my friends are beautiful. Trust me, if I have talked to you more than once and have said something nice to you, you are my friend. If not, you are probably still consider a friend of mine. Plus, if you are religious like me, we are all beautiful in the eyes of god. We don't have to prove our beauty to those that won't matter in the end. If your not religious just know that I think your beautiful. Stay beautiful.

Have I told you lately that I love you?

The phrase "I love you" is not heard amongst peers that often. Why not? Why don't people love each other any more? What happen to those days when we were young and we all got along and we all loved each other. I miss those times. Those times where the mistakes we made and the things we said didn't matter. What happen? What happen to the days when we didn't have a single mean thought in our minds and we would never think of intentionally making someone cry? Those days when we knew that everyone was beautiful in their own special way. I really miss those times. Why don't we tell people that we love them? You never know when will be the last time you see them. You shouldn't wait to tell people that you do think about them and that you do care about them. Ever minute that goes by is the last one that will ever happen. Why would you want to spend that one minute being mean or making someone cry. I wish people would really cut each other some slack and try to understand what their peers are going through. I wish people would at least try to understand what we are going through. I wish people would think before they spoke. It would all do us some good. You don't hear people saying "I love you" anymore. Here is what I have to say to that: I love you Savannah, You are so sweet and beautiful. I love you Saskia, you are so down to earth and just... real and beautiful. I love you Sarah, you are so funny and beautiful. You really know how to pick a girl up when she is on the floor. I love you Emily, you are such a happy and beautiful person. I love you Jack, (as a friend) I haven't really gotten to know you well but the few times I have you have been nothing but funny. I love you Christine, you are beautiful and sweet and you are such an amazing person. I love you Josie, (Yes I do mean you Josie!) You can always make me laugh and you such a sweet and beautiful person. Sorry if I forgot anyone but if I did, anyone that is a part of my life, I love you. I am eternally grateful to know you. How is that for I love you?

1 More Month

So today is March 8th. My brother gets home on April 8th. What does that mean... 1 more month and counting tell I get to see my brother. I am so excited!! I love my brother. I haven't seen him in two years. He has been on a mission in Tennessee. You can imagine how excited I am. ;-) Yesterday me and my dad got to chill out. Well not really. We were working all day. My room is going to be altered and expanded on. So basically me and my dad are going to smash through a wall and my room will become part of another room. Yesterday me and my dad completely emptied my room. Wow that was dusty!! I've never seen so much dust! I realized today that there are many deep people that go to my school and I am not the only one who feels the way I do. So refreshing. I mean it showed that I'm not the only one trapped inside a protective box. That was just so refreshing to read and see. If you are reading this you probably know who you are. Thank you so much for giving me some insight to someone that is going through the same thing I'm going through. Thanks!! Well that's about it so have a good spring break! XOXO

Spring Break

Spring has begun the flowers have come! Oooo! Let's try another rhyme. Spring is here. The sky's are clear. Oh... I have rhyming skills. Whoo hoo! Spring break is finally here! Super excited! Don't you just love sleeping in and just hanging out! I absolutely love it! Wow I type a lot of explanation points. I'm just a very happy person that likes explanation points. That's me, the explanation girl. That probably sums me up right there. I sang at the assembly today. So nerve racking. I was sooo nervous but I pulled through. I also wrote a song today but it isn't done yet. It's called "Have I told you That your Beautiful?" I am dedicating it to all of my friends cause I love them lots and they are... beautiful!! But anyways I did the singing thing and I think I did OK. It was so fun to see all the talent in this school. A couple of my friends participated in the talent show also. There are so many amazing people with some really cool talents. :) Over my spring break I am going to be taking care of a Yorkie Poo! That is a cross mix between a Yorkshire and a Poodle. The dog is so cute. I am actually looking forward to it. Random but I thought I would tell you what I was doing this week. Short post but that's about it! Have an fantabulous spring break! XOXO

TGFS!!!

That little thing up there in the title means "Thank Goodness for Savannah!" Seriously though thank goodness for her. I started calling her banana. I hope she doesn't mind. I can see where that could be annoying. I should stop. I love her though!!! This morning I had Coco Puffs for breakfast. I love Coco Puffs. Yummy chocolaty goodness. Mhmmmm! I had art today! Whoo hoo! This blog is sooo random isn't it. Sorry if I'm boring. I am making a clay sculpture of Blossom from the Powerpuff Girls. That has been my favorite show forever!! I was blossom when I was a little kid. So fun right?! I have to sing in front of the whole school tomorrow at a assembly. I am super psyched!! A little nervous but very excited. I will also be playing the piano. I will be singing "Love Song" by Sara Barellies. I am going to dedicate it to one of my friends that passed away in July. Apparently it was one of her favorite songs. I'm so happy that I can do that.

I heard a really cute quote on "The Office" tonight. "It dosn't matter if Cinderella gets her slipper back. It sometimes just matters if a prince picked it up." I thought that was really cute. Well think that's about it! Wish me luck for tomorrow!!! XOXO

Kicking of the Chair

Today was pretty funny. Tyler was kicking my chair in Social Studies so I went into my little complainy whinny mode on him. I told him to stop kicking my chair and he told me I don't really want him to stop. He said that I'm just saying that so he will do it more. Wow! He really has me pegged. I do really like the rhythmic shaking of my desk. I like my hand writing looking like chicken scratch because I can't hold my hand still. Tyler has me pegged. Yesterday I was feeling very upset. Have you ever felt that way? Just upset*. (View down below if you would like to know more!) Thank you to Savannah Banana! (My un-paid shrink!) I love that girl. She is so helpful and just helps me out! Just talking about her makes me feel happy. Oooo Happy happy happy! I was listening to that song called "Perfect Day." You know the one that is in the beginning of Legally Blonde? I love that song. That is my dream life right there. And sometimes, on good days my real life! It made me feel super happy. Today at young womens we will be playing sports. I am very excited plus my buddy Christine is coming! Yay! Perfect recipe for a perfect night! Think thats about it! XOXO This small font is in relation to my bad day yesterday. STUPID PMS!!! Well thats akward. Sorry if some dude read this. Well... Okey dokey. Have a now very, very ,very, very akward day! XOXO