Today

Today I heard a song. It felt like it was speaking directly to me. It was called "Tessa don't Worry." I just could not believe it. It is like the person that wrote this personally knows me and just understands life. It just really made me feel good and it made me feel like everything was going to be ok. When I heard it I was just like "Thank you God!" So yeah, that ended a difficult day rather well. :) XOXO

Breathe

I can't breathe without you but I have to. I wonder if you feel this burning passion that burn within you like I feel I do. Am I just alone in this? I have been before. Oh lord help me. I don't if I'm just being idiotic or naive. I feel as if I run from it but it just doesn't leave. I can't escape it. I feel as if I'm not his princess and he isn't ever going to come after me. Will anybody ever? I wonder if you have ever had this thought even cross your mind or if it is just a simple never known fairytale in my mind. Does a prince always fall in love with the princess or will he eventually see the passion in the girl on the side? I don't know. Am I the princess of the girl on the side? Probably not even either. I am probably the girl in the very back of his mind waiting for my chance to be the very first thing. Even when I have always been there I wonder if he notices. Why can't he notice me? Why am I not that girl he just completely wants? Help me fairytale god mother. I really need you. I need dreams to come true and wishes to be granted. My ship is sinking. I have gone down under. Will anyone save me?* *Sarah and Savannah, and anyone else that knows what is going on, we are completely back to square one on the Tessa project. I'm sorry. :(

My Friends

I would just like to say to all of my friends that helped me out of my flip out mode Thanks. Seriously I do not know what I would do without you guys. *Internet Hug* (Be prepared for a much bigger hug tomarrow!) I know that if things are difficult for me or if I'm in a long never ending hard spot, that you are the one's that will always be there to help me out. Thank you soooo much. I will love you guys forever and always! Seriosuly I do love you guys sooo much!!! Lot's of soooo much freaking love. I LOVE YOU ALL SOOO MUCH*!!! XOXO *I really can't stress this enough! I really really love you guys so much!! I know that if life is hard or if I'm just feeling alone and just dead to the world, that I will always have the most amazing friends in the world that care about me. Thank you! Love you forever!!

2 years exactly

This is a VERY special day for me and my brother. For those of you that don't know my brother left for his mission in Nashville Tennessee. What most of you don't know is that he left on April 4th 2007. What does that mean? It has been an exact year!!! Whoo Hooo!!! Me and my family are going to go get him on April 7th which is only 3 more days away. I'm super duper psyched!!!! I haven't seen him in 2 years. Otherwise today though I went and did another singing mystudio thing. If you would like to watch it just click on the thing that says MyStudio on the right side of my blog near the top. Once there you can watch which everyone you want. To recognize my newer video's they are the ones that have a picture of me in a pink dress. So yep!! Today has been Good. I can't wait to see my brother. I can't believe that the day has finally come. I feel like I'm going to burst with excitement. Whooo Hoo!!!!!! So just to let you know if I'm not at school on Tuesday... you know why! :) Well have and amazing week everyone. XOXO

Wear Sunscreen

I know this is long but I would love for everyone to read this. If you would rather just listen here is the YouTube link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xfq_A8nXMsQ It has some serious life lessons in it. Please do me a favor and just listen. Please. It is such a great help if you are feeling sad or upset or if you just have a couple of minutes to kill. Please.

Mary Schmich's "Wear Sunscreen Speech"

Ladies and gentlemen of the class of '97. Wear Sunscreen. If I could offer you only one tip for the future, sunscreen would be it. The long-term benefits of sunscreen have been proved by scientists, whereas the rest of my advice has no basis more reliable than my own meandering experience. I will dispense this advice now. Enjoy the power and beauty of your youth. Oh, never mind. You will not understand the power and beauty of your youth until they've faded. But trust me, in 20 years, you'll look back at photos of yourself and recall in a way you can't grasp now how much possibility lay before you and how fabulous you really looked. You are not as fat as you imagine. Don't worry about the future. Or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubble gum. The real troubles in your life are apt to be things that never crossed your worried mind, the kind that blindside you at 4 pm on some idle Tuesday. Do one thing every day that scares you. Sing. Don't be reckless with other people's hearts. Don't put up with people who are reckless with yours. Floss. Don't waste your time on jealousy. Sometimes you're ahead, sometimes you're behind. The race is long and, in the end, it's only with yourself. Remember compliments you receive. Forget the insults. If you succeed in doing this, tell me how. Keep your old love letters. Throw away your old bank statements. Stretch. Don't feel guilty if you don't know what you want to do with your life. The most interesting people I know didn't know at 22 what they wanted to do with their lives. Some of the most interesting 40-year- olds I know still don't. Get plenty of calcium. Be kind to your knees. You'll miss them when they're gone. Maybe you'll marry, maybe you won't. Maybe you'll have children, maybe you won't. Maybe you'll divorce at 40, maybe you'll dance the funky chicken on your 75th wedding anniversary. Whatever you do, don't congratulate yourself too much, or berate yourself either. Your choices are half chance. So are every body's else's. Enjoy your body. Use it every way you can. Don't' be afraid of it or of what other people think of it. It's the greatest instrument you'll ever own. Dance, even if you have nowhere to do it but your living room. Read the directions, even if you don't follow them. Do not read beauty magazines. They will only make you feel ugly. Get to know your parents. You never know when they'll be gone for good. Be nice to your siblings. They're your best link to your past and the people most likely to stick with you in the future. Understand that friends come and go, but with a precious few you should hold on. Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and lifestyle, because the older you get, the more you need the people who knew you when you were young. Live in New York City once, but leave before it makes you hard. Live in Northern California once, but leave before it makes you soft. Travel. Accept certain inalienable truths. Prices will rise. Politicians will philander. You, too will get old. And when you do, you'll fantasize that when you were young, prices were reasonable, politicians were noble, and children respected their elders. Respect your elders. Don't expect anyone else to support you. Maybe you have a trust fund. Maybe you'll have a wealthy spouse. But you never know when either one might run out. Don't mess too much with your hair or by the time you're 40 it will Look 85. Be careful whose advice you buy, but be patient with those who supply it. Advice is a form of nostalgia. Dispensing it is a way of fishing the past from the disposal, wiping it off, painting over the ugly parts and recycling it for more than it's worth. But trust me on the sunscreen.

Sweden

Somebody viewed my blog in Sweden... That is soooooooo awesome!!! Random but thought I'd let you know. :) XOXO

Read my Mind by Tessa

1st verse: Lets go walking on the corner of easy street. Come on honey you know what I want. Come on honey you know what I need. What are you blind? Can't you see? Don't you know I've been feeling this way for a long time. Can't seem to get you off my mind. Let's go. Right now to any place but here. A place where you can know. A place where you can see.

Chorus

My mind is wide open and my heart has stopped. Your the key and now I'm unlocked. Going non-stop. Can't breathe. Come on baby save me. I'm like a book but why can't you read me. Just check it out. Oh oh its so easy. Just read my mind. I don't care if you read my mind.

2nd verse: Come on honey lets go somewhere. No no I don't really care. Take my hand and squeeze it tight and lets run away from this troubled world. Once we reach our destination of nowhere, let's just stop and stare at everything around us. Oh oh. Can't you see? I don't really mind if you kiss me.

Repeat Chorus

Interlude: I heard actions spoke louder than words but you can't hear me. No you can't hear me. I thought actions were clearer than words but no no you can't see me. Oh no.

Repeat Chorus

Can't you read my mind. Go on and read my mind. Read my mind.

Alright boys and girls that is the end. Tada! XOXO