You have no idea

You have no idea how important this picture is to me. You really don't. You guys are always there for me. All of you. You always stick with me. I know if I ever fall you will catch me. Its always guaranteed. No strings attatched. Just like Savannah said today. "If you break, we will be here to bring you back up." Even if I called you at 4 in the morning crying, i know you would listen and pretend you weren't tired. I love you so much. You have no idea. You have no idea how important you are to me. You have no idea that I would do anything for you. You are all that matters. Nothing else. I have nothing to worry about because I know you will always be there. Thank you. So much. Thank you to any of you that have ever been there for me, ever. Even for the most miniscual thing. I love you so much you can't even comprehend

XOXO

P.S. this goes out to all of my friends. Really, I love you more than you will understand. Soak it in.

Yeah I said this.

tell yourself your cold and heartless it will make you feel strong. Say your heart is made of stone that can't be broken it will make you feel invincible. Yeah I said that, and I meant it. Feels great. Love the some and the few. XOXO

Dear Friends,

You make me feel oh so much better. These are the times when I am reminded how we became friends. Cause I was there for you, and you were there for me. You are all I need to help me. Nothing else and NO ONE else. Thank you for everything. Really to all the friends that have ever been there for me for even the most stupid reasons. I love you more than you can comprehend. really I do. Thank you so much. Love, Tessa

Click

"Heads Carolina. Tales California." I really want to get away. Shake me and wake me up. I feel like I am living in a haze. Just grab me by my shoulders and shake me and throw me until I just break into an uncontrollable fit cause that is better than being a faker. I am so sick of the radio now a days, yet I still listen to it. When I see flashbacks it makes me angry. Shouldn't it make me happy? Its making me more and more and angry but yet I still look because I think that somehow I will get back to that point. *click* *click* *sting* *sting* *Step back* Over and out.

Thanks Jack. Your a good friend. :)

Do you not realize?

I'd go back to how things were if you did? I would go back to before this amazing disaster happened. I would go back to the time that you were one of my best friends and my brother. Now, your just the ghost that I see through photos. Come back please. Cause I am sick of waiting.

A day in 4th period theatre

Alicia lost a bead. I will describe everything that is going on around me. Grace is reading while I type. Bri is braiding her hair. Tyler is talking to Luke. I hear a cat, it sounds like it is giving birth to a chicken. Alicia is wearing rose earrings, i think they are pretty. She said thanks and I said your welcome. Grace is changing the facebook language to pirate. Bri is staring at a blank google screen. Lauren is getting papers out of the printer. Cassie is talking to Daniel. Oh Daniel is hugging Cassie. Things move fast in theatre. It got quite when Grace started singing. Grace looked up Jack Sparrow. She started giggling profusely. Alicia dropped a bead. I have been told not to move but yet... I continue moving. I am sorry. Mario and Dillon are playing a game on the computer. nifty. Bri is looking at four googles... at once. She sure likes google. Bri is reading MLIA to me. I love her. Grace just celebrated an unknown victory. She is currently reading this post as I am typing. oh her unknown victory was she typed in bork bork bork and then typed in Carl Sagan (whoever that is.) Oh... grace told me he is a famous scientist. Alicia made 2 bracelets. That girl works fast. I really want a frozen meal now. That sounds freaking delicious. Daniel has a red Powerade. I want a red Powerade. Grace is looking at the Carl Sagan portal. I know, I am confused too. Its cold. I just got the chills. Eeek. Does that mean a ghost just passed through me? Alicia's string that she uses to make bracelets is called stretch magic. Grace is now taking the keyboard and will begin typing in 3...2...1...I LOVE YOU AAAAAALLLLLLL!!!! AND I LOVE YOU TESSA!!! XOXO

So I am in the computer lab!

I am sitting here in the computer lab with bri :))) we have been picking out scripts for theatre and we have nothing else to do. Are script is Juno :) I love that movie. hehehe Babies have fingernails! Fingernails!! haha yessss. But it has been a great day. just sitting here with Brianna. Love that silly girl. She is the cheese to my macaroni. Oh yeah, and in are Juno script thing, i am playing Leah and she is playing Juno. So um, i guess i am the Leah to her Juno? If that makes any sense... haha schyeahh. So um yeah, Bri says hi :) well people are starting to question what I am doing. I feel like such a rebel being on the computer when I should be supposedly working. Even when I have nothing to do. Haha well over and out boys and girls :)

XOXO

To you

Its not customary. When I say it I mean it. I say I love you to people. I say your beautiful to people. I know I say it to many people so some may think it loses its emphasis. I mean it every time. When I say it to you, or when she says it to you... when WE, the together eternal WE, say it to you, its not customary. We mean it. I love you. Always have always will. Our bond is different. No matter what trials come, I promise you it will never break. Cause I am your shoulder and you are mine. I will always be there and so will you. I promise. Its not customary, its the truth, from the people that will always be there. From the people that will love you no matter what. From the person that will make you wear a blue dress with cowgirl boots. I promise. Its the truth. XOXO

When I look back

When I look back on all the posts I've done... its almost like I am reading a book. I mean, like a biography. It says all I was dealing with but when I wrote it I somehow made it so it was difficult to decode. Its so intriguing. Can I put something out there, I am still the same Tessa. I have my moments but I am still the deep and understanding person I was and am. I don't know, I just, I sometimes worry about people splitting apart and I don't want that to be a reason. I love all my friends so much and I don't want something that isnt' even real to ruin it. I finnaly started writing again. It felt great. I like how this one turned out. Plus its always fun to describe what I write to people and the meaning it has to me. Its things they don't realize. Its interesting :) So I am heading off. Love you all. Truely forever and always. XOXO Decode me. Decode the black dots on my measures.

I am...

Openness to Experience/Intellect High scorers tend to be original, creative, curious, complex; Low scorers tend to be conventional, down to earth, narrow interests, uncreative. You enjoy having novel experiences and seeing things in new ways. Conscientiousness High scorers tend to be reliable, well-organized, self-disciplined, careful; Low scorers tend to be disorganized, undependable, negligent. You are neither organized or disorganized. Extraversion High scorers tend to be sociable, friendly, fun loving, talkative; Low scorers tend to be introverted, reserved, inhibited, quiet. You are extremely outgoing, social, and energetic. Agreeableness High scorers tend to be good natured, sympathetic, forgiving, courteous; Low scorers tend to be critical, rude, harsh, callous. You tend to consider the feelings of others. Neuroticism High scorers tend to be nervous, high-strung, insecure, worrying; Low scorers tend to be calm, relaxed, secure, hardy. You aren't particularly nervous, nor calm. So... This is what I am, according to a personality test... Interesting. I also took a color quiz. I am a BLUE. It actually sounded a lot like me. These things are wayyyy to accurate. Well sweet sauce. Adios :) XOXO

When the wild things bite

So yeah, the immature people that decided not to grow up yet bit me. Yeah, it was stupid. If your reading this, do us all a favor and grow up cause people don't want to deal with your immaturity. But I am so thankful for all my good friends. I mean really, they are the best in the world. They are always there to help me and make everything better. Thank you so much. I love you guys forever and ever. <3 So lets see, whats going on in Tessa's life... umm Cheer! So thats going good :) I love my fantastic stunt group!! Alexann, Kelly, and Michelle... I LOVE YOU GIRLS :) I can tell it will be a good year. So yeah, thats what happening it my life. In case your were wondering. So thats all :) Love you all oh so very much!! :) XOXO P.S. I walk like a peinguin when I am sore.

I have noticed

Its funny how things can change so quickly. Like from one day to the next. Its like you wake up a completely different person. With new feelings and a new outlook on almost everything. It can be for the best or the worst. But then again it will always change the next day. So me, currently I am just trying to figure things out, probably like the typical high school student. Then again, who said anything about me being typical? Have any of you ever heard your name whispered before? Its not a good feeling. Its like you just want to go yell at the person and tell them to say it to your face. Yeah, if any of you ever have a problem with me... grow up past the maturity of 5th grade and tell me to my face. But after all, most likely any of the people reading this have never really offended me. In fact, I love any and all of you that even take time to read this. Thank you :) Its so weird how your opinions of people change over time. Like I remember how certain people just frustrated and bugged me so much but now... they end up being a friend of mine. Like how me and this kid in science are writing a contract so we can get our seats back when we sat together. Cause we just had so much fun. Its so interesting how that all works out. I hope our teacher lets us move back. I liked that class :) Well this has just been my little random paragraph session :) I hope you all are doing great. Keep in touch with me cause I love you all :) Thanks for all you do. XOXO

These are the days

These are the days were you look back and smile. It has been a great day for everyone. I mean really... EVERYONE ;) So lets see, I had a half day. YEAH. Then Cj came over. we had a video game competition. Well lets see, I owned at guitar hero. And the rest... yeah the rest I lost :( but whatevs I still got skills!!!! I also lost at pool but i think I've gotten a bit better. lets see then we watched the office. Pretty fantastic. Then I headed on over to Kay's house were I hung out with Tiffanie and Jorden!!! Love all those girls so much. Then played ultimate Frisbee. I did an epic fall. It was funny... everyone thought i was hurt. pshh... i don't break. :) Then Lets see... We all decorated Aaron's room and then on the way home we danced in the street. sounds pretty fantastic right!!! ahhh Yeahhh :) I love days like this. Alrighty well I love you all!!! XOXO

Its been awhile

Its been awhile since I've been straight up honest. I am happy. I am smiling. Isn't that great? For reasons unknown I am so happy with everything now. I mean, I have great friends, great family, life is ummm great. Sure... math is blah but whatever. IT DON'T BRING ME DOWN :) But yeah, doing super duper great. Me Kelly and Kay dresses up like lady gaga to day. it was freaking amazing. we are making a music video :))) Yeah its pretty sick well... I am heading off. bye bye love you all!! XOXO